I've been learning to shift from WITNESS to WETNESS––a practice that combines all the benefits of witness consciousness, while also dealing with its shadowy downside.
Let me set you up: Back in the 80s I made a huge esoteric discovery after 12 years of "witnessing" meditation. I'm going to let you in on it: WE HAVE EMOTIONS!
I devoted myself to learning all I could about this new mystery. One week the Big New Thing in town was NLP (NeuroLinguistic Programming) and of course I went to the seminar. Amongst other stuff which I've forgotten (because the techniques seemed to be about tricking me OUT of my emotions), I learned that different people process information differently, according to which "type" they are––visual, auditory or kinesthetic (actually, to show you knew what you were talking about, you had to call these "vish, audio and kino.")
(Quick digression: What type are you? And what type of type do I mean, today? Living in Silly Marin, as I do, most people I know can at least speak the languages of astrological types (Vedic AND Western of course) and the enneagram, if not also Myers-Briggs, love types, body types... Well, sometimes it seems silly to me, but perhaps that's because I'm a 4 (strong 5 wing) Leo with a Taurus moon intro-extro ectomorph oral type and if you now feel you know me we're both in big trouble!)
As I was saying,
I'm going to continue what I began two posts below, before the cats got into the blog...
WHY, I was asking, do we resist waking up?
How can we stop resisting and start letting go into the flow that takes us where we need to go.
Let me make up a quick 3-point manifesto, to put a context around this:
1) The reason you are struggling is because life is trying to mirror to you the parts of yourself that need to let go of some kind of fixation or clinging. In fact, they need to dissolve, before you can access reality.
2) There really is a Greater Intelligence that knows you, knows your deepest soul aspirations, knows your highest destiny, knows how to get you there.
3) The so-called ego-death is a birth into a place that we have been wanting to get back to for a very long time. Oneness. Integration. A truly restful yet exhilarating unfolding into more love, more fun per hour.
How can we get there?
It is said that the journey of a 1000 miles begins with the first step. (It was also said, in a jokey email I received last week, that nowadays, the journey of a 1000 miles begins with a cash advance ;-) )
Another truism is that you can get there from here. Wherever you are, however stuck you think you are, there is always a next step that will bring you closer to that remembering point within your own consciousness.
Here is where iWave comes in: That next step is to surf on a wave, and you can learn to do this. Much as some teachers like to insist that there are no techniques for getting there, that it's all just grace, what they are actually saying is that the only technique is to sit and listen to them saying there are no techniques for getting there.
I have found that there really are a few practices that work radically well to get me and others unstuck and rapidly catapult us back into the flow that leads out of fixated consciousness into the wavy stream that carries us home. The key word is wave -- as you have probably figured, if you have done my work or read my website even a little...
Within every seemingly solid objective situation in the material world, and every logically impossible situation in the mental world, and every overwhelmingly painful or scary situation, in the world of feelings, there is a subtle wave, or flow that, if you can find it, you can surf it right through walls, right through fears, right through contradictions, out beyond that situation into infinite freedom. This wave is so subtle that denser forms cannot stop it. It is so dynamic that it expands and contracts, bends and undulates, changes frequency and size, to get you out of jail fast. It is the living soulwave that never leaves you, like a little NON-Imaginary Friend who follows you around waiting for that moment when you wake up and say, "Okay, I'm ready to shift modes and stop being caught in this. Where is my surfboard, oh Ally? Guide me to the wave and let's surf on outa here."
This may sound very metaphorical, but if you have experienced the mother/soul/i-wavework, you know that this is the PRACTICAL secret of all secrets, and that acquiring this skill frees you, potentially, from all the solid stuff that can otherwise slow you down, mug you, drug you and keep you enslaved in what may even seem like safety or pleasure, wasting yet another life...
Wow - I wonder if this will make sense in the morning?
I'm going to go to bed and surf that subtle i-Wave into the infinite.
sending waves of love, darlings
P.S. Now it's the next morn, and it makes sense to me -- how 'bout you?
"Hi, I'm Merlin, KT's other cat.
(NOTE: she ascended in 2011).
KT wanted you to know she has TWO cats. I sometimes gets a little sibling rivalry with my sister Morgana, who is pushy and needy. This photo shows me meditating and doing yoga, aka The Merlin Method. I love to lie like this for long periods of time, with my legs in the air. If you wave a hand in front of my eyes I won't blink, but I'm NOT Cat-atonic! I'm enjoying xtc.
KT is also meditating and doing yoga, so she asked me to continue the theme she started in the last post, about "Why are we so cunning and powerful in our resistance? How can we let go?"
Well, I don't know WHY you humans are so afraid of letting go and letting life simply serve you––works for me!
Meanwhile, I am demonstrating the HOW-to-let-go part in this photo. She will probably say more when she posts again, but I just wanted to pop in."
Welcome! I-Wave is birthing as I write. Just for practice, I'm writing in the new Zen Koan form of TWEETS, only 140 characters allowed
this blog replaces doorwave blog, created when I was in the birth canal, doorwave or wormhole between realities. The future is now the now
i-Wave was hanging out in the womb, waiting to be born. Babies generate the chemical that starts birth, when not induced or threatened
some babies resist birth and NEED induction or Cesarian. Gina, Tai and Rachelle said, we’re putting on the first i-Wave, you just teach it
alright, alright, thank you, thank you, let’s do it. Suddenly the walls of the womb are tighter like in Star Wars trash scene, ay! Ay! AY!
or should I say “Ay, i, I,” because the new wave is about expanding the small I into the awake I aka IAM consciousness
i-Wave is a very big initiation compared to previous motherwave and soulwave trainings, and inside me it feels like a birth and a death
we’re more than 1/2-full with almost no marketing, 1 month to go, omigod it’s really happening. Can’t reverse it without severe tire damage
was in 3-yr teaching break hiatus hermit ‘nuf already time-out 15 years lemme out, sigh, rest, do other stuff, expand, missing my work
downloading mornings 4-8am, new wave to be “infinite wave” or “i-Wave” motherwave/soulwave content included and evolved, “The I” now primary
waking up from her timeout coma, she discovered social networking aliens with new verbs like “to friend” and new ADD forms like twitter
no way! averse to social network face-to-face, prefer real intimacy, direct experience of Oneness, so why the online misery hell no I won’t go
dear Katie, great to hear from you. I tried to find you on Faye’s Book and wondered why you are not there. You really should get on there you know
hi Katie, would you join me on Link Tin so we can be professional together? What, (to my old friend) don’t tell me YOU’RE tweeting? Oh no!
well, maybe. No forceps, don't need induction, invent tweet-blogging as temp bridge but my birth was very fast and I guess it's inevitable
come join us in (2010), grads more, c u there okay tweet
I’m going to call my mum in England today, even though English Mothers’ Day was weeks ago.
My mum may be partly responsible for our safety, since she has devoted much of her life to the banning of nuclear weapons. Here’s a story about her, as part an article that my friend Asandra requested for her blog in the Miami Examiner here http://bit.ly/divinemom.
One day in the early 90s I was visiting my darling mother in England, and we were actually having tea in a teashop (which you Americans might expect us to do, but which we had never done before!). All of a sudden, during a lull in the conversation she asked me–she actually asked me!:
“Katie, what is it that you do?”
Now, you might think she would have asked before, since I had been doing “it” already for 20 years. But since I had defected from the family’s academic tradition of being atheist scientists, and become instead some kind of spiritual weirdo, my family operated a sort of “don’t ask, don’t be told” policy. So this was a very exciting moment for me! Perhaps I would get some validation from mummy! I knew I only had one or two sentences, at most, before she would glaze over, so I stammered out something about “it’s kind of like psychology but more focused in the body.”
She froze, and fixed me with one of those looks. After a few beats she spoke in a loud, shocked voice:
“The BODY?… WHATEVER FOR?”
If you are born as a Komodo dragon, and mother gazes into your eyes, you stay very quiet. Because when mom gets “that look” in her eyes, it isn’t maternal lovie-dovieness, but hunger. Komodos––and many other reptiles–are cannibals who eat their young.
But we are human beings, and we cried when we were separated from mommy, and, in a deep sense, we are still crying. We are mammals (from the latin mamma, or breast), and who we are has everything to do with our mothers, and the bond of oneness that we formed–or didn’t–with her in our early years. We evolved past our reptilian phase by developing a “mammalian” or “limbic”brain which makes us very emotional creatures. Our bond with our mother makes us who we are, literally: all our physical and emotional systems are designed to develop in a healthy way by what’s called “limbic regulation.” For example, experiments have shown that by snuggling with mom we get our heartbeat strengthened much more effectively than if we are simply placed next to a heater simulating mother’s warmth.
More to the point, our bond with mommy lays a basis for us to feel safe in life, and connected, one with our source, our Great Mother.
Or not. Mothering is imperfect, especially in our Western world. I don’t need to go on and on about this: we all know it. Since many of us didn’t have a perfect bond with Her (and of course this is a cultural problem–there is no blame), we find ourselves as adults, in a wild and crazy search to restore and repair this bond. Our relationships are all about this, yet often reflect the tears in this primal bonding. In other words, in trying to heal our feeling of separation, we attract partners who resemble the more challenging aspects of how we experienced our mothers–engulfing, avoidant, or the most crazy-making: ambivalent (running hot and cold). So often, instead of healing, we simply reiterate our wounds.
And many of us turn to spirituality. We feel a deep separation in our core and, perhaps after trying and failing to resolve it with “worldly” fixes, seek a transcendent source to heal and love us. This is right and good. In fact, you could almost say that we might have chosen difficult mothering experiences to drive us onto the spiritual path. Ammaji was an abused child.
Where I’ve seen a problem arise, for myself and for hundreds of people I’ve worked with, is that as in relationships, we can often unwittingly reiterate our wounds through the spiritual teachers and paths we are drawn to. In my case, for example, as you might have guessed, my mother was not very affectionate or “hands-on.” This was not her fault; it was what she learned. Yet it caused me to seek solace in a spiritual path with a guru, in my 20s, that took me completely out of my body. I was a full-vows monk for a decade, and lived in a kind of disembodied “higher consciousness” that was really a sort of cosmic dissociation.
Eventually, I crashed, and spent my 30s coming back in and meeting the body and painbody. Eventually in my 40s I had a breakthrough experience in which I found myself swimming for several days in an infinite ocean of energy. I found that I could surf its waves. It told me to call it “motherwave.” I discovered directly that the All That Is, God/Goddess, wanted to include the body and emotions. to mother me palpably and directly, without any intermediary, such as a partner or a drug. When I began teaching this I called it Motherwave, for obvious reasons. Now after 15 years, my realizations have evolved and it’s called The Infinite Wave, or i-Wave. The first i-Wave training is about to happen in June (2010).
*Is Love scientific? Let's clear out the memes.
*Unimaginable, SCIENTIFIC Love.
*My cat doesn't like inquiry
*DOWNWAVES: On Creativity and Life Purpose.
*ARE YOU IN A MELTDOWN?
*Melting your Heartbreak.
*From WITNESS to WETNESS
*A GHOST AFRAID OF DYING
*My Hot Date with Eckhart (A Brief History of Now)
*Fatherwave, Fibromyalgia and Physics
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