We are all on a journey of ascension. You wouldn't even get to this website if you weren't. I don't usually call it "ascension," preferring, like most spiritually correct folks in my zipcode, to say "awakening," or maybe "enlightenment" or just "waking up." But it is an ascension, albeit via a spiral staircase that dips and loops like a roller coaster, because as we progress towards Oneness we can see more clearly in all directions, like when you "zoom out" on Google Earth.
This whole website and my life's work are about not zooming out too fast. Or thinking you've zoomed out and failing to integrate some part of your gnarly, complex self.
Many folks who seem to be "above it all" spiritually are, in my experience, actually dissociated. And the incredible pain they are sitting on comes out one way or another––through relationship and family problems (often more of a "problem" for the partners or kids due to the Dissociated One's numbness), or through health problems or money problems or just a general lack of heart-opening.
Because my point, and I do have one, is all about the Heart. This whole website is about the Heart. I don't say it all the time, or "brand" myself as "Heartwave," or something like that, because I've found that it actually isn't understood, as a word. Either we relate to it as something too female, or too emotional, or too Hallmark Channel, or we think that we already know it. "Oh yes. The Heart. I did a meditation about that once."
So what I mean by tiptoeing past the sleeping guards is this: However many times you (and I am included) do some process that frees up energy, or have a good meditation, or teach something and feel enlightened, or play some music and feel you are finally merged... something pulls us back out.
Are you tired of this? Going up and down on the roller coaster gets old. Is there a trapdoor somewhere that might lead to a spiral escalator that would give us a more consistent experience of that lucid, everyday ecstasy that we remember, or maybe we don't even remember it… ?
My experience has been that true acceleration, painful though it is, at first, is the breaking open of the heart. From which emerges The Heart. And in this case, "Heart" is now the "H" word (see previous posts), and a synonym for God, etc. Oneness means that your heart is inhabited by the Heart of the Universe. Anything other than this is not awakening, it's just a mental state. A new identity to pay the rent with.
Those guards, whether they are some secret addiction that doesn't even have a 12-Step Program (i.e. ego) or a surging loop of brain chemicals, cannot, can NOT imprison a being who is flowing on the waves of the Universal Heart. How to do this? Love everyone you meet, or even think of, today. And I know you're going to say you should love yourself, right? What self? Who the hell is that "self" whose care and feeding has become an entitled obsession? I've noticed that those who truly love others come to love themselves through the backdoor.
And keep doing this practice for the rest of your life.
Sending a wave of Love